Assalamualaikum my dear blogger friends. How are you? I am well and fine Alhamdulillah. As you guys know I have officially finished my diploma journey and became a diploma holder, something that I still feel surreal until now, feeling so proud and blessed that I made this far. Fast forward 2 months after I ended my diploma studies, I managed to secure a place at UUM to continue my degree journey at the age of 20 years old! Alhamdulillah. It was my second choice in UPU. It is written for me to be studying here at the end haha. Now it's already the 4th week. I am still adapting to this new student life, it is way way more different. Sya rasa kecik sangat dan kerdil bila tengok semua orang, sebab masa diploma sya belajar kolej kecik je, tak ramai orang pun. I am scared. Bagi Sya, going to get this degree is like the "REAL" thing. macam rasa dah besar sangat, not saying diploma was easy and just not IT tapi vibes dia rasa beza sangat. rasa macam kalini sya memang kena study betul-betul, sebab after this, I will become an adult and start my working life sampai tua. That's what made me think that I just really need to do my best and create as many memories here. 

I want to be someone who is capable of doing everything and I want to grow so much as a person, to be the best version of myself.  But that's not happening now haha. It's true I think. Some people say that the degree journey is very lonely. I already feel that!! Sya rasa alone dekat sini, oh bukan tu je, Sintok Kedah ni dekat hujung dunia, sebelah Thailand dah. Cuba teka Sya orang mana? Selangor gais hahahah. nak balik pun kena fikir 2-3 kali dulu tarikhnya bila boleh balik. I've now adapted to life where I go to class alone, buy lunch alone, and do everything alone so far, sebab entahlah memang gerak solo. Kawan tu ada sikit-sikit and still have not found the ones that I can really vibe with, but Alhamdulillah, I have met really good people here, including my dear roommate! so far Sya rapat lah dengan rumet. I have a long way to go, but I'm looking forward to it. Living 6 hours away from family is not easy so I always videocall with them. Dah homesick ke belum? mestilah dah and I cried huuwaa. 

About this university that I'm currently studying at, I'm so amazed at all of the facilities they have, kalau korang dengar pasal UUM apa yang korang terdetik dulu? mestilah uni yang dekat hutan kan? and it is indeed so true. Sumpah hutan, serious dalam hutan. TAPI, in the end, I really love it, full of nature, and greens all around me. The vibes and the environment here make me feel it is not so bad after all hahaha. Very student friendly, and everyone literally needs to do a lot of walking to go anywhere. Boleh kurus beb. and to go to classes? memang jauh daripada inapan siswa, kena naik bas. And Sya dah reti ye nak berebut bas every day. Macam tin sardin. Therefore, I would go to class one hour early just to catch the bus supaya tak payah berebut and dapat duduk dekat kerusi. Also, I just realized that class Sya semua starts pukul 8.30 pagi! super morning but it's okay I love being a morning person. 

Since semua student UUM diwajibkan duduk dalam uni, it is so heartwarming? pleasing? to see everyday petang-petang semua orang akan beriadah, dekat mana-mana ada students, jogging, bersukan, main basikal. That's the uni vibes that I just love to see, this community. Entah-entah Sya cerita ni semua, ada dikalangan pembaca blog sya ni alumni UUM pulak! hahahah. Please show yourself!! I guess so far that is an honest experience on the first look of Degree life in UUM. Doakan untuk Sya survive dan jumpa orang-orang yang baik di sini, mungkin jodoh jugak? siapa tahuu hahah. Eceh.

Thank you for reading until now,

I will come back here and share with you my #DegreeDiaries from time to time okay.

QOTD : Kalau korang merupakan Degree graduates, ada kata-kata nasihat untuk Sya yang baru nak mulakan life as a degree student? (it would mean a lot to me if you could give me advice about your studies journey!)

Take care,

Sincerely,

Syasya♡

Assalamualaikum semua!

Its me Syasya! Happy New Year to everyone!!

Last post was 6 months ago. That was so long that I didnt update anything here :(

Busy dengan kehidupan hahah. Sya still tak percaya tahun ni Sya akan masuk 20-series. An actual adult. Korang baca blog sya dari tahun 2016 kot hahahahah.

Entahlah, kenapa ye kena membesar, rasanya baru haritu umur 17,18 now sya dah 20?! huwaaa..dah boleh kawen..hahahah..harap semua orang yang masih membaca blog-blog dekat sini sihat sihat semuanya!

Tahun lepas Sya umur 19.

Throughout the year, Sya dah listkan semua achievements, any events, and new experience yang Sya buat sepanjang tahun 2022. Sya tulis dekat phone notes je but i would like to keep it here too supaya takkan hilang hehe.  This thing was inspired by @aisyahshakirah

Here it goes, I did a lot of things too in 2022 ♡

1. I got my driver's license for both a motorcycle and a car. 🚗🛵

2. Survive another sem 4 that is just full of Ro0oLLercoAster 🚂🚞

3. Faced my fears and started driving alone

4. First time going to Pasar Seni and got my first flowers 💐💐

5. Dating with Alya at an expensive restaurant < The Qing > 🍱🍥🍘

6. Learnt to do makeup! Little bits 

7. Going back home all alone by public transport grab>ets>lrt>bus

8. Appreciating more nature lately, love to see the greens < tanam pokok durian ^^

9. Joined Colour run 2022 with sofea🎨

10. Packed my stuff and moved out and became happier. 

11. Went to my first concert ever and it was Amir Masdi 💗 someone I adore!!! His voice 4lyfe

12. Netball tournament vs courses and won first place. 🏅🏅

13. Had birthday celebration with family. Loved those moments on my B-day 🎉.

14. Staycation at Port Dickson with complete 7 members of the fam bam.

15. Managed to do drop ship and gain $$$ profits

16. Unplanned staycation at Teluk Batik with housemates withOut telling parents !!

17. What's new this year? Trying DipnDip, mee tarik, Richiamo, Sukiya, 4fingers, Kfry with friends

18. College trip to one of the coolest uni ever, AIU 🫶🏻

19. Managed to read 17 books for this year.

20. Meeting new kind souls (uhuh guess who 🧚🏻🧚🏻🧚🏻🧚🏻🧚🏻)

21. Did my first ever manicure at 19 Years Old!💅

22. Staycation at Ipoh for 2 days with ♡

23. Not a covid virgin anymore (22/5)

24. Lost my memories box to ashes (worst thing happened)

25. 1st Time Voter!! 🇲🇾 

26. Sofea taught me how to play SUDOKU (but I still sucked)

27. Impromptu trip!!! demi 2 pasang kasut💛

28. BUAT GRAB KAT KOLEJ 🚗 ☠️ 

29. Puasa penuh Ramadhan 2022 💫🫶🏻

30. Maintain Dean list for the past 4 semesters.

31. Adulting (read: being alone, grocery shopping, dealing w banks, eating alone etc)

32. Nanges 5 hari berturut 🫠 (of coz la achievement)

To end this, I'm only 19, and I have many more mistakes to make, lessons to learn, and milestones to mark. 🤍

You can't force anything honestly, and I realized that it's okay if you're the one who needs to let go, leaving a situation where you don't belong, for your own sanity. I never imagine things would happen the way they did and from there, I get to grow so much. 

And those people who were there for me, through my ups and downs, the ones I can openly rant and rely on, I love you so much. 

What have I struggled with so much this year? Definitely friendships. Oh god knows how I keep questioning "why did this happen to me" but then everything happened for a reason right? The painful truth is, you need to face things for you to move forward in life lol. Also, lesson learned. Some people just don't deserve to be called your friends. Anyway, I'm enjoying so much peace now. 

Tough year, but I'm tougher :)

Jujur Sya kata, tahun 2022 adalah tahun yang sya paling banyak menangis, diuji dengan banyak benda dan tahun yang banyak beri pengajaran for me. Also, seeing myself grow a lot this year.

Untuk tahun ni pulak, InsyaAllah Sya habis diploma, sambung degree, InsyaAllah kalau ada rezeki nak belajar di luar negara. Doakan untu Sya okay? Thank you.

Looking forward what 2023 will brings.

QOTD: Apa achievement yang korang paling bangga pulak in 2022? share la kat comment sya nak baca! ♡ 

Sincerely,

Syasya ♡

Assalamualaikum and hi ♡

It's been so long since I stopped by and look at my  blog. I missed writing, how it used to be and now I  barely remember how to write properly, I did write  journals too physically (pouring my hearts out) until I  realized I have trust issues among people around me,  and sadly I just stop writing. Too bad isn't it? should  have kept a living diary so I could re-read it back one  day and in fact, it has been a roller coaster journey of  my life right after high school ended. ohmygod I have  so much to tell to you! and is 5 am now (woke up at 3  am because hidung tersumbat, can't breathe can't sleep  huh) 

It's been so fast, im 19 now!! had my last teen  birthday celebration this month. Had this blog since  2016 I believed. That was long ago when I was 13  years old hahaha. I don't know what to write and  where to start. Maybe I should start over. Just writing  what I feel, maybe? so that I could get back into  writing and maybe improve? because I know my  writing is really bad now hahaha.

I searched for a journaling prompt to talk about so that my ideas will not dry up? at least I've got topics to talk about! and along the way, maybe I will insert more stories about my life in InsyaAllah.

If you have seen my profile picture on the right side of my blog, what kind of personality do you think I have? oh only if I could know what people think of me. Frankly speaking, I think im a shy person in real life, like if im new in a place, I don't think I could not start a conversation with anyone first.

Sometimes I do have this problem, I get so scared to interact with strangers especially when I want to buy something or in stores. is this normal? or is it anxiety? At the same time, I could be so loud with people who I am comfortable with or with my close friends. Im an ambivert which means im half both an introvert and an extrovert. Im in the middle.

I have this one friend, who is super shy around everyone, the one that is super quiet in class. imagine that, but she's not quite with me at all, she's like a 360 whole different person when she hanging out with me and I always find it so mesmerizing to get to know that side of her so I always asked her "kenapa kau dengan aku bising tapi dengan orang lain pemalu sangat?" and she said that "bersyukur la aku boleh jadi macamni bila dengan kau." hahaha she said that its because she's comfortable with me and she could be herself. it is funny but so cool. and then she said to me that im a "social butterfly" person. I blurred because I don't know what it means Ahah (now I know) said that im the one who can easily talk to. :D well, I don't know. 

I tried to be nice with people around me, but you know we are always a Lil bit harsh/clingy with people that we're closed to? that's me hoho. but generally, I think my family knows my real personality though cus im different at home too hahaha. 

I guess that's all from me today.

And how about you? what kind of personality do you have?

comment down below!

Sincerely,

Syasya♡

Assalamualaikum, hello!

Untuk episod kedua, kita akan berbincang tentang imej badan! or body image.

Imej badan bukan hanya sekadar cara kita melihat tubuh badan di depan cermin tetapi ia termasuk juga cara kita berfikir bagaimana orang lain melihat diri kita, bagaimana kita rasa tentang rupa paras diri, dan imej badan merupakan sebahagian daripada keyakinan diri.

What do you think of your body image?

Apa pula maksud imej badan positif?

Mempunyai imej badan yang positif bermaksud anda berasa selesa dengan badan anda, rasa gembira dengan perkara yang tubuh anda boleh lakukan dan anda mahu menjaga kesihatan fizikal diri.

Sya tahu sesetengah orang memang risau tentang imej tubuh badan diri, kita rasa kurang self esteem, tak gembira dengan tubuh badan yang ada, malu dengan cara orang lain lihat tubuh badan kita or worse, kita compare badan kita dengan badan orang lain, 

Imej badan sebenarnya berkait rapat dengan standard kecantikan or in English we called it beauty standards! 

Beauty standard merupakan standard yang ditetapkan oleh masyarakat dalam penilaian kecantikan dari segi fizikal. Jadi disebabkan terciptanya pelbagai jenis beauty standard di seluruh dunia, termasuklah malaysia, kita rasa pressure kena ikut that beauty standards. oh dekat Malaysia, of course setiap perempuan kena ada kulit yang putih melepak and "fair" barulah ramai suka dan nampak cantik. Betul tak? Sya rasa Sya perasan yang tulah benda yang berlaku di negara kita, terikut-ikut dengan beauty standard negara lain. (Read:Korea)  

Lepastu, banyak ya iklan pemutih kulit di media sosial yang menyebabkan remaja-remaja zaman sekarang terpengaruh nak ada kulit putih sebab akan baru diregnozid as cantik. It is actually not okay. kita patut terima warna kulit kita seadanya and love our own skin colour! Kulit sya pun, very tan since kecik and in school I played sports through all my teenage years so my skin is not fair at all. Pernah kena ejek tak? of course, I was called hitam by guys when i was in primary school and high school too, well see how the beauty standards made other people insecure about themseleves? their skin? their body?  but I really love my skin now after I realised my skin colour does not define who I am.

I remembered my favorite English teacher said this before "we should be proud to be women of color!" and I agreed.

in the end, tak kisah lah apa orang lain nak cakap tentang badan kita, we should appreciate, accept and be confidence in our own skin. I know there are people struggling with this body image, me too, im still struggling and still trying to love my own body. so let's do our best to take care of our bodies and be the best version of ourselves. YOU do you.

Body Image and Self Esteem

Untuk pemahaman yang lebih baik,

Sya kongsikan beberapa video untuk korang tengok! please watch it.

You're beautiful just the way you are! embrace your differences

sincerely,

Syasya♡

Assalamualaikum dan hello!

Kita akan mulakan siri  #GirlsTalk dengan episod pertama iaitu tentang Gender dan Seks.

Korang perasan tak, ramai sangat zaman sekarang tak faham apa sebenarnya apa maksud gender dan seks/jantina.

Apa pula Gender stereotypes?

Contohnya, kenapa orang cakap lelaki tak boleh menangis? sebab lelaki kena tunjuk yang diorang ni kuat dan kalau untuk perempuan pula, kena lemah lembut sifatnya.

ini adalah contoh Gender streotaip yang dicipta oleh masyarakat. 

Benda ni lah yang membuatkan kita fikir yang lelaki dan perempuan kena ada certain sifat-sifat yang hanya boleh ada pada jantina mereka sahaja.

This is wrong.

lelaki boleh menangis dan perempuan tak semestinya lemah lembut.

Apa yang Sya nak cerita sebenarnya ni? 

we're influenced so much because of the stereotypes that society made on how to act or do something and it changed our perspectives on how we see men and women.

Apa perbezaan Gender dan Seks?

Gender ialah streotaip yang diberikan oleh masyarakat dan boleh berubah mengikut zaman. Tanggapan gender biasanya mengikut jantina seseorang dan diberikan oleh masyarakat. Ramai disini masih keliru dan salah dimana mereka fikir gender itu adalah sama dengan jantina tetapi tidak. Jantina ialah seks kita iaitu sama ada lelaki atau perempuan. 

contohnya, cara berpakaian, sikap dan tingkah laku seperti yang sya cerita dia atas.

Apa itu seks?

Seks/Jantina ialah perbezaan biologi di antara lelaki dan wanita dari segi struktur tulang, kromosom, hormon, alat kelamin dan sebagainya.

Contohnya, hanya wanita yang boleh melahirkan dan menyusukan anak. 

isu dia pada zaman sekarang, impak gender stereotaip ini banyak ke arah buruk yang boleh menyebabkan keyakinan seseorang menurun kerana meletakkan seseorang dia bawah sesuatu persepsi yang kita fikirkan. Stereotaip  dapat menyebabkan seseorang menjalani kehidupan yang didorong oleh kebencian, dan boleh menyebabkan mangsa-mangsa stereotaip itu didorong oleh rasa takut.

Bahkan, gender streotaip ini telah menjadi norma dalam masyarakat sejak kanak-kanak lagi seperti lelaki tidak boleh menyukai warna pink kerana ianya adalah warna bersifat feminim dan kanak-kanak perempuan hanya boleh bermain dengan anak patung ketika kecil.

Realitinya, Sya rasa semua orang pernah berdepan dengan situasi gender streotype ni, mungkin kita tidak sedar yang perkataan dan perbuatan yang dilakukan merupakan gender stereotaip yang mungkin pernah meyakiti perasaan orang lain. huwaaaaa.

Sya pernah lalui sendiri, dan pernah lihat dan dengar cerita daripada ramai kawan-kawan yang penat hadap benda ni sampai gender streotaip ni dah biasa dalam keluarga pun. Contohnya, yang ramai adik beradik tapi hanya si kakak yang kena buat semua kerja rumah seperti memasak,mengemas,lipat baju, iron baju, yang si adik beradik lelaki? tak buat apa-apa macam raja di rumah. bila disuruh tolong, katanya "kerja perempuan" it is what the teenagers are faced now. and the parents? had the same mentality. 

An article about gender stereotypes > How Gender Stereotypes Kills a Woman

Untuk pemahaman yang lebih baik, Sya akan kongsi beberapa video mengenai topik ini, jom kita tengok sama-sama!

Make sure tengok untuk lebih faham ya! 

Sya harap perkongsian harini bermanfaat untuk semua! Sya dengan terbuka hati untuk terima teguran dan discussion/pendapat rakan-rakan blogger di ruangan komen!

Let's educate ourselves and be a better person/friend/sister/brother/parent in the future.

question: have you ever encountered any gender stereotypes? Just comment down below and lets begin our discussions! Sya pun nak tahu berapa ramai orang yang pernah kena? adakah perempuan sahaja yang selalu kena gender stereotaip ni?

QOTD : Now semua dah faham perbezaan gender dan seks yang selalu orang salah faham?

There is no limit to what we, as women can accomplish

Sincerely, 

Syasya♡

Assalamualaikum and hello

I have been thinking about this for few months that I wanted to do this. 

making a series where I shared all the knowledge I learned from a program called GOAL.

Assalamualaikum and hi everyone,

it's me syasya..yes I missed my blog so much, I used to be so active back then but now I couldn't even start writing..im here because I just want to write updates about myself and my life, to keep it here. did you guys read one of my recent posts before this? there was this one comment that touched me which was kak @mijablur saying that she missed reading my blog..and asked to keep blogging..omg I don't know..there are people who remembered my blog?? huwaa I feel appreciated and touched haha..thank you for still stopping by here once in a while.

The titled haha, my birthday has passed dah, on July... but I just want to tell you everything that is going on right now..after my spm result..upu result came out, I managed to secure a place in UIA! I got my third choice which was asasi dalam perancangan pelancongan dan pengurusan hospitality. it was my target also to enter uia actually! and then I received another offer which was a diploma in marketing in another college. After having a lot of thoughts, I've decided to take the course that I think im really into so I decided to take marketing. and here I am, going into my 9 weeks of online distance learning haha.

MasyaAllah tak cayee dah masuk belajar diploma..no i wanna go back in school please huwaa.

I really hope I made the right choice. InsyaAllah. So far it has been alright for me, it's so weird to be friends with people online but you haven't even met them yet! haha. All day every day just sitting at home, building up fats in my body. ish3. Actually, I don't think I did anything fun or anything these days so there's not much about me... 

I've started reading books back because finally, I've got the time to relax and read haha but so far managed to finish my target 5/5 books for this year! well, it still progresses right? and now reading the seventh book hehe. 

Being 18, of course, it is the time where you will experience a new journey right? I mean like you're done with school, you're going into university life, like the next phase of your life I would say? and you have to be more independent? and mature? be more of an adult?  it scared me actually. oh my sooner im going back to college, I've never been apart from my family. 18 years I've been living with my parents and im very closed with them..maybe that's why..im scared at the same time im excited about what's coming for me... I also don't take driver's license yet aduh..my mom has scolded me because of sya tak daftar lagi pastu lockdown and so sampai sekarang lah...

you know right after school, you don't get to meet your friends anymore, and yes I realized you just stop talking to some people because everyone has their own life now, and own paths...kan masa dekat dekat sekolah setiap hari boleh tegur everyone now everyone is minding their own business...but I still contact with some of the closed ones..and get to know my friends' updates on social media is good enough for me... I hope everyone is doing well insyaAllah.

I was actually preparing to start a series on my blog and it's called #GirlsTalk where we discuss a lot of things, more to women empowerment, and I have managed to only finished 2 episodes before I suddenly stopped writing huwaa..I don't know if I should post it or not but I really want to share it. should I? 

I think that's all for now, I hope everyone is doing fine and take care of yourself. 

Here is a quote I found today on Twitter.

Be grateful that certain things didn't work out. Sometimes we don’t even know what we’re being protected from, or where we’re being guided to in the middle of chaos. That’s why it’s important to just have trust that bigger things are lining up for you. Let it go, and let it be. - @muslimthoughts1

ps: if you're reading my post, let's interact in the comments below :)

Sincerely,

Assalamualaikum, hello everyone.

how have you been? It's been so long since I was on the blog, probably all of my audience is gone by now, and forget my blog existence isn't it? if you didn't forget about me please comment down below! hahaha. I also did archive all of my writings though. Im so sorry for not actively writing but I do come here once in a while...

This year, 2021,

I will be 18 years old.

Time flies so fast, I felt quite sad because I'm growing up and going to be an adult. I just finished my SPM on 25/3. That was my last day of school. No more baju kurung. Yes, we're batch spm pro max tu! 

who did expect we will take our spm at the age of 18? not me! haha.

In this post, I would like to write a conclusion or recap what I can say about my high school journey.

Enjoy reading...

5 years of high school, was it memorable? I would say definitely. It made me who I am today. 

It's not about what I just learned but I think it's the friends that I have in high school that made my life as a high school student better. The memories, ups, and downs. 

But sadly, last year, where I supposed to be having the best year of my life, my last year as a form 5 student or so-called senior year they said, didn't turn out to be how it was supposed to be. 

All the things we imagined when we were15 like graduations, the last Raya celebration, hanging out with friends, more school events didn't happen because of the pandemic we're having. oh, not to mention, we just go to school for the first few months only and spent most of the time at home because of the lockdown.

no, im not blaming the situation or anything! even so, these things happened, there were that better things that happened such as I get to spend more time with my whole family, puasa together, solat terawih together. it was such a blessing in disguise.

so we were doing that online learning for few months and no it's not easy, I've heard so many people struggled to keep  balance between online class and house chores. and those who find it hard to study at home and also those who have family issues. 

what a struggling year for everyone.

and then, the school opened!

I met my friends and everything went so fast, all I could remember was the next week is spm.

really, I don't think I have many memories of last year with my friends. 

it's okay I guess, but when we came back to school, I made many memories with my friends.

form 4 and form 5 I think would be the best year because my classmates are something else. hahaha. 

I became close to people I have never thought I would be close to. all the struggles for spm we had back then. My friend's struggles. I'm so happy it is finally over now. 

I hope I will get good results and make my parents and everyone proud of me.

I hope you can pray for me as well. Thank you!

I wanted to thank my friends who help me go through this pandemic, who has been there for me. I'm really glad to have them in my life and I made new friends too during the pandemic. Mi, the person who I've never met but we're comfortable talking on the phone. haha. That's the coolest thing I did. and there's Fatin, the nicest Selangor gal who helps me a lot with my studies. <3

now, it's the end of my high school journey. 

I'm going to open a new chapter in my life where I will meet new people, I will be in a new surrounding. and adulting? Im scared. 

at the same time, I'm excited to see what's going to come for me. 

May Allah ease everything. 

I want to end this post with a letter to my friends :

Choosing this school was not my decision and I always complained to someone that I wanted to move high school but hey I've officially finished 5 freaking years in here. and walking home every day for 5 years with my friends. isn't that cool. haha. I would cherish every memory that I have in here as long as I can remember it! (I have short-term memory lol), the pranks I did, the games we played, the silly arguments I had with you. the heartbreaks? haha kidding. They said high school friends will be the most special people in your life. I think it is true. my friends here would always have a special place in my heart. Ceh. 

I hope everyone will have brighter days ahead,

Now everyone has their own path and I wish nothing but the best for my friends, I hope you will achieve your dreams. 

enjoy the process and I hope we can meet again one day.

it's sad that high school won't last forever no matter how much I want it.

and I'm so thrilled to see my friend's life updates and keep in touch with everyone. InsyaAllah.

Let's close the final chapter of a good book and open a new one.

QOTD: How were your feelings when you just finished high school?

I would love to know!!

Sincerely,

Syasya ♡