Hello, Assalamualaikum♡
Ramadhan Kareem!

Just a quick updates about me.

I just finished my midterm exams and it was really exhausting. what a hectic 2 weeks of nonstop exams.

Every day, I would check my email to see if there's a new comment on my blog because I  don't really check my blog cuz im just "lazy+busy" but then im always here haha.

This is the topic that I really want to talk about.
Best friend. No im not going to spill teas about my friends in this holy month. I've heard enough teas in this month on twitters, Instagram sshh.

Since form 1 until form 3 I have been  in the same class with same people, and I've been blessed to have such good friends with kind souls, annoying ones and I think im also part of that annoying friends haha. I just love my friends. I'm actually quite a shy person if we're not close and I'll be so damn talkative if we're close. With them, I couldn't stop talking lol, dah biasa.

Throughout those times, I've become really close to some.
Going through form 4, we all split. like most of us, there are some in the science stream, account, economy, and business class. Fortunately, I'm in the same class with 4 of my good friends since form 1 tu. and we became like a squad tau. Most of the time we're together.

I also get to know new friends that I've never talk to before, get to know them!
most of them are not matured though and sometimes I just can't tolerate with them haha.
they can't stop shouting macam monyet. but the girls are okay!

And there goes one day we keep talking about how we could actually pindah sekolah and hoping dapat tawaran asrama, kv or anything just because nak pindah sekolah.

By the way guys, I did receive an interview call for KV but I didn't go.
My mom declined it.

The story begins when my friend got the letter of acceptance into KV. I believed some KV didnt have to do an interview and some have to but she doesn't have to go for interview.

And guess what.

She didn't tell us. She did not tell anyone that she got accepted to KV.

And it was a week before cuti seminggu bulan January tak silap.

After cuti seminggu she have to go daftar terus.

I find it so stupid like kenapa tak bagitau. We were all mad.
I only found out about it when it was cuti. she told us in the group chat and honestly, I thought she was lying and tak percaya but it was true.
I don't know what to feel.

she said sorry because dia kata tak sanggup nak bagitau.
what a dumbass eeeee Im still sad and can't get over it until today.


She knew she got into KV on Tuesday, and on Thursday was the last time I see her.
and the thing is on Thursday tu pun I balik sekolah awal tau like 1.30 because I have a dentist appointment. I said bye to all of my friends before I walked out.
Oh on friday ramai tak datang sekolah including me and her.
(dah lupa kenapa tak pergi lol)

Little did I know that was the last time I see her.

So time cuti tu it was okay cuz I didnt think it was that serious or I mean pindah je pun.

but when school started back,

for real la dia dah pindah. rasa lain.

She actually left us letters for each of us.
She passed the letters to my friend.
There were 16 letters for everyone.

I read mine and cried.
Sedih gila.

I know she's not dead but rasa macam hilang kawan bebetul tau. like I never feel this way. Now tinggal the three of us. We all hate her for that now haha.

In the letter she said

" Thank you so much weh for everything dari buruk sampailah yang baik "

I sebak.

She also told me im very special to her.

I sebak gila time tu hahah felt like I just lost a best friend.

Its already May, everythings fine. We all still catching up with her when she's home.
We also wrote her a letter tau sent to her kv on February. Gigih gila. we're the best lol. And letter tu sampai dekat dia. Quite shocked, cuz didn't expect dia dapat surat tu. Her Kv can't bring phones huh.

In conclusion, I just want to tell this story because I want to keep it as memories here.
Definitely miss her so much, and appreciate your friends who are there for you through thick and thin before its too late! eh. Also, dont do dumb decisions by not telling you're going to pindah for real. I would actually tell my friends if I akan pindah and want to see if they will cry for me or not lol.

She left without saying goodbye,
Semua tak dapat peluk one last time.

I miss you Naddy.

Do you have any similar experience?
Would you mind sharing with me?

Thanks for reading.

Sincerely,
Syasya