Hi, Assalamualaikum semua, sya dah lama tak banyak cerita dekat sini, bila baca balik post-post lama banyak betul cerita sya tulis kat sini. Harini terdetik nak bukak blog and tengok2, alang-alang tu sya nak cerita about my result just wanted to put it up here for memories. Nanti bila dah 30-an baca balik.
Latest post haritu sya tulis pasal dah habis sekolah, kalini sya nak cerita semalam result spm 2020 keluar!
Of course few days before result day tu pun dah start nervous sebab what if tak dapat apa yang sya target, what if kecewakan parents and family and the pressure sebab kakak abang sya result spm semua hebat2. all these things going through my mind. Lagi satu, it is different sebab semua kakak and abang sya amik science stream but sya amik aliran sastera because im not that smart. so I couldn't ask my siblings about my studies and because of different subjects, I had to learn everything new alone and struggled a lot. tapi wah, masa awal-awal tingkatan 4 tu rasa best gila sebab kena beli semua buku rujukan baru lah takyah pakai yang lama hahahah.
Sya lama tak update kan blog ni sebab malas and takde benda menarik pun nak cerita all this time duduk rumah and online class je. As far as i remember 2020, sya sekolah tak sampai 5 bulan. it was hard, studying at home. Kat rumah sya buat study group everyday dengan 2 orang kawan sya, malam pon study sama-sama. sebab takde motivation nak study, but when with friends, baru boleh hadap buku la jugak.
Pastu tak pikir apa dah, enjoy je cuti kejap then cari kerja! sya alhamdulillah dapat kerja dekat kedai baju PADINI jadi part time promoter tu hahah. It was such a whole new experience. Bangga dengan diri sendiri.
I have never cry because of how proud i am with my result. and yesterday i did, sya nampak je result terus menangis kegembiraan. menanges weyyy, genuinely happy tears. sebab tak sangka i did it, it was beyond my expectations. Alhamdulillah, syukur sangat. sya nangis sebab terkejut pastu my mom pon nangis sebab lagilah terkejut ahahah. dia pon tak expect! i still feel like it was dream, tak pernah capai gred macamni, sebab sya biasa2 je sekolah pun sekolah harian biasa jee. all the efforts were paid off. sya banyak terima kasih sangat dekat kawan2 sya yang sanggup study dengan sya, kena paksa study, and ramai lah banyak tolong sya. i think because of them, sya dapat this result. sya tak tahu nak cakap camne cam tak percayeee pastu sya pun later that day sujud syukur dan mesej semua cikgu2 sya and kawan utk berterima kasih. im so thankful.
mesej ustazah, reply ustazah excited sangat sampai sya pun rasa nak nangis balik huwaa.
and lastly, I thanked my maths tutor, look at her reply? made me cry again. dia volunteer jadi free tutor sya and im so thankful! result maths sya sebelum ni tak pernah cecah b+ pun. it was my weakest subject that I dont like. so bila nampak result b+ tu yg nangis sangat. memang risau tu jee huu. Ekonomi dengan perniagaan pun gentle sya cakap susah, tapi alhamdulillah macam mana entah dapat A :') berkat doa2 kawan2 dan keluarga sya maybe. again im so so thankful for this. This was the best result I have ever got in my entire high school journey. Alhamdulillah thanks to Allah SWT.
For the first time ever, I think I made my parents and family really proud of me♡
Thank you for reading!
Sorry kalini penulisan sya macam santai betul.
Good luck dear self for your future endeavor♡
ps: im so proud of everyone who took their spm result. we did our best and im super proud of you :'')
qotd : korang pun bangga tak dengan sya? :"(
ada nasihat utk melangkah ke alam univerisity tak? huwaaaa
Sincerely,
Syasya♡
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